Wednesday, October 13, 2010

Busy


Pheeewwww.....
Akhirnya bisa istirahat jg dengan tenang.Tidur bisa tepat waktu lagi, gak punya beban, makan semangat lagi......

I do love my job.I'll do everything.I enjoy it.

Seneng rasanya bisa dapat kepercayaan dan diserahin tanggung jawab.Konsekuensinya emang harus kerja ekstra, semua pikiran dan waktu harus difokuskan kesana.

Hampir satu bulan, kesibukkan seperti gak ada habisnya. Sekarang, saatnya untuk istirahat sejenak, nge-charge energi lagi. refreshing itu hal yang mutlak, jd setelah itu kita bisa fokus kerja lagi.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Me Daddy....

(dapet nih foto dari dhini akbari)


Speaking of my dad...hmmm....its a neverending story.
So many things to tell about him.
The story that must be told.

He gone too fast.When i need him so badly.
He's the best dad in the world.Nobody does it better.


Papa tuh selalu bisa nebak jalan pikiran anak2nya.Dia selalu bakal support apapun yg dilakuin anak2nya,dengan syarat kita serius menjalani itu.Papa tuh gak pernah maksain kehendaknya.

Banyak hal tentang papa yang gak bakalan pernah Amie lupain.
Gak peduli sesibuk apapun papa,dia bakal punya waktu untuk setiap acara di sekolah.Papa selalu ngejemput raport kita,duduk di kursi paling depan dengan wajah penuh rasa bangga.
Setiap ada pertandingan,papa selalu hadir, walaupun kadang2 kita gak sadar.
Beberapa kali pernah tuh,pas waktu ada pertandingan volleyball,waktu itu udh down banget...eh samar2 ngeliat papa di kejauhan...i've got my spirit back.

Kita punya hobby yang sama.
Mancing ke laut,trekking ke hutan atau ke daerah2 pedalaman,ke kebon,dll.Saat panen raya adalah saat yg menyenangkan,hakhakhak....
Pergi sama papa tuh selalu menyenangkan.
Bahkan ampe penyakit pun sama...diare,hehehehe....

Papa punya peraturan yg ketat di rumah.Anak2 harus udh ada di rumah maksimal jam 5.30 sore.Trs maghrib ama shubuh harus jama'ah.Setiap jum'at harus ngaji bareng2.Makan malam dan sarapan harus sama2 di meja makan.Setiap anak punya tugas masing2 dan harus tanggung jawab ama itu.Sunday is family day,jd papa gak bakal ngijinin ada ekskul atau kegiatan sekolah lain di hari itu.

Beberapa hal tentang papa:

- papa tuh gak malu nunjukkin kemesraan'a sama mama di depan umum (pas waktu kita masih kecil sih kita ngerasa malu,hahaha....tp skrg kita sadar bahwa papa tuh romantis bgt ternyata ama mama,hakhakhak).
- papa selalu pulang ke rumah buat makan siang,katanya lebih baik dia makan buatan istrinya daripada makan di luar.
- papa itu orang yg paling disiplin.Klo mau bareng ama papa ke sekolah tiap pagi ya harus stand byu jam 6.45 pagi.Papa bakal ninggalin klo lewat dr jam segitu dikit aja.
- papa tuh emang type pemarah,tp marahnya y udh tentang itu aj dan sebentar...setelah marah y udh baiknya lg cepet.
- papa tuh ngajarin kita untuk memperjuangkan sesuatu,jd klo kita pengen sesuatu kita gak bakalan dapetin dengan cara gampang dan gak bakal dikasih begitu aja.
- papa hobby bgt nonton film, well ini nurun ke semua anaknya...kt semua addict bgt ama film.
- papa tuh suka bgt makan dan klo ngajakkin kita, papa bakal cerita ttg filosofi makanan itu.
- papa tuh rapi bgt,wangi....suka deh deket2 papa,hakhakhak....bau aftershave'a,bau deodorant papa.
- papaku itu orang yg paling gagah,hehehe...punya chin dimple (dagu belah)...kumis rapi...rambut klimis belah pinggir.Apalagi klo udh jalan,pake panthofel coklat kesayangan...pake kacamata item,tas selempang kecil...
- papa tuh jago masak...klo papa udh ke dapur...tinggal bilang mau apa deh...
- papa tuh selalu ngerjain semuanya sendiri.Klo mau keluar kota,selalu nyiapin bajunya sendiri,dan susunan di koper itu selalu rapi dan sistematikal.
- papa gak pernah bawa kerjaan rumah ke kantor, karena klo udh di rumah ya dia bakal spend his time full for his family.
- papa tuh jago nyanyi, jago bikin dan baca puisi, jago nari (sejak jaman dulu ternyata dia jg udh terkenal di seantero padang).


Hadehhh....masih banyak lagi tentang papa yg gak bisa dilupain.

He passed away in June 25,2002.That was the worst day ever.Nobody know this,but i cant cry for 6 month or more after that day.I cant let my tears out.

Why he must gone so fast?Why....why...why... There's so many thing to share dad. There's so many problem to solve. There's so many story to tell. I need you.I need your shoulder to cry on.I need a hug from you when i get a big problem. I need you to smile at me and tell me that everything is gonna be alright. I need you mad at me when i do the wrong thing and give me a warn.

I'm not grown up yet dad.And its because of you...
I'm still your lil girl.
The one who always cried when you mad at me.
The one who always laugh when you made a jokes.
The one who always blushed when you and mom teased me.

I love the way my dad walk.
I love the way my dad laugh.
I love the way my dad treat my mom.
I love the way my dad tell a story before we went to bed.

He loves us.
He always made us proud.
He had his own way to solve any problem.
He had many stories to tell.
He was a funny dad.

Dad....
I hope you smile at us now.
I hope we can make you proud.
We proud when they know us because of you.
You make us strong,tough,full of confidence and not fear of anything as long as we are in the right direction.
We gonna face any problem dad.You dont have to worry.
We gonna protect mom from anything.
We gonna protect each other.


They remember you because you are the best and the nice guy in the world.

Saturday, July 31, 2010

Friday, July 30, 2010

Care for the one who shares with you
Share with the one who knows you
Know the one who misses you
Miss the one who wishes the best for you

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Thanks Boss...



I have a nice chat with my boss this afternoon.
Talk many things...about life,work,principle,colleagues,future and other thing.

Tapi yang paling seru ketika flashback tentang pertama kali saya menginjakkan kaki di Pasir Pangaraian ini....topiknya mulai menghangat.
Cerita tentang bagaimana pertama kali saya bertemu orang yang nantinya (ternyata) menjadi boss saiah,hakhakhak....
Well,honesty is important thing,right?
Ya sudahlah saya jujur apa adanya,bahwa saya gak nyangka si bapak ini adalah seorang boss.Jujur pada waktu itu aura dan gesture'a sama sekali tidak menggambarkan itu.
Awalnya sih si bapak cuma cengar cengir ajah,habis saya selesai bicara baru deh semua 'terbongkar',hakhakhak....

Dont't judge a book by its cover.
Jangan menilai buku dari sampulnya.
Kalimat ini memang sering diucapkan,dan sangat gampang.
But from my boss story and honesty....its like he gave me punched in the face.
Ternyata saya seperti itu sebelumnya.

In my defense,i guess in everyone gonna have same thought as me when they are in my position.

Saya jelaskanlah kondisi waktu itu gimana.
Terus saya jelaskan bagaimana gambaran saya tentang si bapak berubah ketika melihat dia untuk kedua kali....dengan seragam komplit.
Well,like i said...man in uniform is different,they look good,tough,elegant and stunning,lol.
A man with authority.

I admit,i was wrong.I judge a book by its cover.

Saya salah,saya akui itu.
Saya dapat kritik yang sangat membangun.
Sebenarnya ini yang saya tunggu dari boss saya yang satu ini.
Udah berapa kali dipancing-pancing tapi belum juga dimakan umpannya,hakhakhak...
Finally.....^_^

Terima kasih untuk pelajaran berharga hari ini bapaaaakkkk...
Untuk menjadi manusia yang lebih baik,saya masih harus belajar banyak.
Seiring dengan berjalannya waktu,saya yakin saya akan berubah ke arah yang lebih baik.

Another advice from him....
"Change your weakness and make it become your strength.
You don't have to be other people,just being yourself,like what you are now.
You have your own own trademark,keep it,cause that make you different from others.People will remember you because of that things.
Keep the idealism as long as i can.

Let everything flow like the water in the river.
Don't dive too deep,just swim in the surface."



Thanks again boss.

Wednesday, July 28, 2010

Lean On Me



Sometimes in our lives we all have pain
We all have sorrow
But if we are wise
We know that there's always tomorrow

Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

Please swallow your pride
If I have things you need to borrow
For no one can fill those of your needs
That you don't let show

Lean on me, when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
'Til I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

If there is a load you have to bear
That you can't carry
I'm right up the road
I'll share your load
If you just call me

So just call on me brother, when you need a hand
We all need somebody to lean on
I just might have a problem that you'd understand
We all need somebody to lean on

Lean on me when you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
Till I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on

Lean on me...

by Bill Withers

I love this song,love the lyrics.Its one of the great song.Very humanity.

I'm getting melodramatic again tonite.
Hey you...yeah you...
Can i cry on your shoulder?????

Tuesday, July 27, 2010

Happy Birthday Mom...^_^


July 27,1955....my mom was born.
July 27,2010....my mom is 55th.

Happy birthday mom.


Thanks for everything....

Thank you for always being there.

Thank you for all sacrifice.


Mom...when you laugh and smile...its...

Like a night in the forest
Like the mountains in springtime

Like a walk in the rain
Like a storm in the desert
Like a sleepy blue ocean


Mah....

Terima kasih untuk perjuangan tanpa henti

Untuk kasih sayang yang tak pernah padam
Untuk cinta yang tak pernah pudar

Untuk selalu percaya kepada kami


Kami bukan apa-apa tanpa mama

Omelan mama adalah jam weker di waktu pagi

Cerita mama adalah dongeng pengantar tidur
Kami selalu rindu bau mama

Lidah kami hanya mengenal masakan mama


Kami tak hiraukan bila mereka berkata buruk tentang kami

Kami lebih takut bila mama menangis karena kami

Kami lebih hancur bila hati mama tercabik-cabik karena kami


Maaf bila kami mengecewakan mama

Maaf bila kami belum bisa berbuat apa-apa

Maaf bila kami belum bisa membalas jasa itu
Maaf bila kami belum bisa memberi apa-apa

Jasa itu tidak akan pernah bisa kami balas

Keringat itu tidak akan bisa tergantikan

Langkah itu tidak akan bisa kami hitung


Impian kami...
Membuat mama bangga

Membuat senyuman itu selalu tersungging di bibir mama


Kita akan terjang semua badai

Kita akan selalu menjadi tim yang paling tangguh

Kita akan menghadapi tebing yang terjal itu
Kita akan selami laut yang terdalam


Terima kasih Tuhan karena Kau telah menciptakan Mama ke bumi ini.




Monday, July 26, 2010

Monopoly


It was another bored weekend.I was too lazy to go outside and decided to stay at home and watched dvds.At 7 pm,i decided to went to my boss house's.I brought many snack and some ice cream.Well,you cant go to other people house's with empty hand dont you?hakhakhak... I went alone there, my buddy Zia Idris went to Dumai and Yan Perdana went to Pekanbaru for duty.My roomie?Hmmm....of course she back to her home in Pekanbaru. Just when I arrived at babeh Ali's house,it hard rain and thunder...phewww....i right on time.Enyak order me to dinner first...but please mam...my tummy is full,can't eat anymore.But i still can eat those TEMPE GORENG TEPUNG,hakhakhak....

Then after small talk...we played MONOPOLY. Always love this game.I remember played this game since i was kid with my dad,my mom,my brothers and my sister.We had fun,always.But sometimes it ended by "fight" and argued,lol.
So...me,babeh,enyak and Alba are the players, and Intan is the banker. I made a mistake...i bought many bad places....blurggghhhh...Picked wrong strategy that night.And guess what...I'm the first one who kicked out from the game because bankrupt.Babeh made me.I must paid him because i stayed at his hotel and it cost a lot of money,made me sell all my property,lol.It was never happened before...acckkkk... Well....babeh was man of the night.For the rest of the game he succeded made all players bankrupt,lol.

The game end at 11.30.It still rained...but pass midnite i decided to went home all by myself,although Enyak not let me do it.Yeah,i know she worried about me went alone in the middle of the night,and she asked me t0 let babeh take me home.
Well...i arrived safely and have a nice sleep at that night.It will be my routine every weekend,lol.Hope they dont mind,hohohohoho....

Bluurrrggghhhh....


Sometimes....I just hate myself
My selfishness
My arrogance

I'm too proud to lose
I dont want people underestimate me

Why i pretend that everything is okay?
Cause it is not
Its my poker face
Its not my true colours
Why its hard for me to admit that you are that good?
I feel so sorry

It's not wroth that much to me
If losing out is what it means
To swim in shallow victory
Is empty, empty
It's just not worth the price
It's only a fools paradise

Do I have to put up a fight?
Do I have to always be right?
Please....don't leave me alone...

That's how it goes
When I feel so sad I feel so low
Life seems so bad I know, I know
That's how it goes

I have a lot of weakness
I admit that
I try hard to be a better person
I will be a better person
Maybe i look tough,but if you see deeper...im so fragile.

I'm gonna make a change,
It's gonna feel real good,
Gonna make a difference
Gonna make it right . . .

Dear God help me...hope i'm gonna be wiser and grown up.

Sunday, July 18, 2010

Introducing....



Perkenalkan keluarga baru saiah....
ki-ka depan:Me,Zia Idris,Mr.Ali amsar,Intan,Mrs.Ali Amsar,Elsa.
ki-ka blkg: Mr.Ardiansyah,Yan Perdana,Alba


Saya benar-benar menjadi perantauan untuk pertama kalinya.Selama ini walaupun jauh dr keluarga,tp masih deket tante,om dan sebagainya.Tp ini total Saya benar-benar sendiri.
Untuk mengatasi berbagai macam masalah yang mungkin akan timbul,mulai dari kebosanan,masalah dalam pekerjaan,or even your to share your personal problem...you need people to share or a shoulder to cry on.

I create my new family in here.At first time i used to hang out with my colleagues.But later,i realize i need people who older and wiser to share with.Mr.Ali Amsar's family is my family now.Maybe i'm the one who feel like that,lol.But honestly,day by day they treat me like their own family.

Hal yang paling membuat Saya selalu ingat akan rumah adalah masakan mama.Beruntung disini Saya juga bisa merasakan itu.Mrs.Ali Amsar will cook it for me.I just ask her and she make it.What a lady.Hahahahaha...benar-benar gak tau diri ya Saya,hihihihi...
She know i love to eat,so she always ask me to eat,eat and eat.
They always invite me to lunch,dinner or just to share tea in the afternoon.And i always have a great time when i spend my time in their home,never make me bored.

Saya bernasib sama dengan kedua pria saya.Oh ya,perkenalkan dua pria yg sekarang menjadi "bodyguard" Saya...Zia Idris and Yan Perdana.Oh yeah,almost forgetting something,we have lil brother and lil sister,Alba(he is so big for his age,lol) and Intan (she is so chubby).
We called Mr.Ali Amsar "babeh" and of course his wife "Enyak".Yes,we are their kids,lol.
Anak ketemu gede...lebih parah,kita yang ngaku-ngaku jadi anaknya mereka,hihihihihi...

When we got sick (first me then Zia and laterYan) they so worry about us.Especially our Enyak.She order us to take a rest,eat properly,dont work too hard and dont be rebel anymore for a while.Its good to have people who care a lot about you.

Thanks to Mr and Mrs Ali Amsar,from the bottom of our heart,we glad to called you our PARENTS.

Office



This is where i work 5 days a week.Like i said before,i hope everyday is a work day ^_^.

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Welcome to Pasir Pangaraian



March 4,2010.I will never forget this date.First day i step my foot in a place called Pasir Pangaraian, capital city of Rokan Hulu Regency.I'm posted here for the next two years.

Arrived at 4 pm,after very long trip and bad transportation.I went straight to a place which later,gonna be my office.Kinda desperated at that time,because work time already over and i don't know exactly what should i do there.

But,its me,Amie...i'm not afraid at all.With full of confidence i came in.I asked the office boy whose in charge in this office.He said that all workers went home already,but they still 2 people who stayed till afternoon and then he delivered me to them. There are 2 guys in that room.I shake their hand and introduced myself,told them where i came from and what my purpouse here.

I'm lil bit surprise,cause they not wore they uniform,lol.They use sleeveless t-shirt.Well,they do apologize and told me the reason why they took off their uniform,its pretty damn hot in there and the electric been shut down.Okay,i could accepted that.
And they gave 'bad news',the chief of the office was not in there,he was in Jakarta for special reason,and i should go back to Pekanbaru where what they called 'PLT' stayed.Blurrggghhh....

I stayed at my acquaintance's place for a while.I'm so boring there,and the owner of the house is arrogant and not a friendly person.Thanks God later i got a great roomate named Yulivia.We rent a room,and this house is not far from our office.And she was best roomate ever.She was nice,kind and yeah a great listener who can make me calm when i got a problem in the office.And she was my friend's cousin.So we felt like we have known each other since long time ago,lol.


I will never forget my first impression of Mr.Ali Amsar and Mr.Tabroni,lol.
Kinda my saviour at that time....hahahhahaha....
After 1 or 2 weeks later i got place in intelligence division,Mr.Ali Amsar is the head division,so he was my boss.To be honest,when i met him at first time,he dont have a look of mr.boss,lol.I thought he just ordinary worker like me or anybody else,hahahaha...sorry Sir. I changed my mind when i saw him in full uniform which made him have that "mr.boss look".

Mr.Tabroni is a purser in my office.He is an average man,he always full of smile.He's Mr.Nice guy.I always have fun when i come to his office room which placed not far from mine.I like teasing him and make him getting red and shy,lol.He also a good listener,when i have a lil problem,i share to him and he gave me a good advice.I will show you his pic later.Oh yeah,he just got a cute lil daughter,born last two weeks.

Mr.Ali Amsar is a head chief of intelligence division.
He is a big guy (physically) and have those army guy hair.I will share anything about him later in my next blog.


The city is so quite.Glad to know that the electricity is great when i come here.Cant imagine live without it for the next two years?I hate this city when weekend comes.Nothing to do and nothing to see in here.In traffic thing,the people always break the rule.They even not read the sign and make turn anywhere.I got hit and lil accident in here.


But,time after time i create my new family in here.Again,i will share about it later. For now....i try hard to enjoy his city.No complaint about my job,i wish everyday is work day,lol.

Friday, July 16, 2010

The Gambler


When i miss my dad,i'll play his favourite song,this is one of them and this song became my fave song too.Read the lyrics closely,its meaningfull.And Kenny Rogers voice's hypnotize me when i hear he sing a song,any song.

On a warm summer's evenin' on a train bound for nowhere,
I met up with the gambler; we were both too tired to sleep.
So we took turns a starin' out the window at the darkness
'Til boredom overtook us, and he began to speak.

He said, "Son, I've made my life out of readin' people's faces,
And knowin' what their cards were by the way they held their eyes.
so if you don't mind my sayin', I can see you're out of aces.
For a taste of your whiskey I'll give you some advice."

So I handed him my bottle and he drank down my last swallow.
Then he bummed a cigarette and asked me for a light.
And the night got deathly quiet, and his face lost all expression.
Said, "If you're gonna play the game, boy, ya gotta learn to play it right.

You got to know when to hold 'em, know when to fold 'em,
Know when to walk away and know when to run.
You never count your money when you're sittin' at the table.
There'll be time enough for countin' when the dealin's done.

Ev'ry gambler knows that the secret to survivin'
Is knowin' what to throw away and knowing what to keep.
'Cause ev'ry hand's a winner and ev'ry hand's a loser,
And the best that you can hope for is to die in your sleep."

When he'd finished speakin', he turned back towards the window,
Crushed out his cigarette and faded off to sleep.
And somewhere in the darkness the gambler, he broke even.
But in his final words I found an ace that I could keep.

You got to know when to hold 'em, know when to fold 'em,
Know when to walk away and know when to run.
You never count your money when you're sittin' at the table.
There'll be time enough for countin' when the dealin's done.


The Gambler by the one and only Kenny Rogers.

Weird Day

Have you ever feel so happy but you don't know exactly what make you feel so freakingly happy?
Well,it was happened to me yesterday.I started the day with no spirit.When i arrived at the office,i felt its gonna be boring and a long day ever.Time flew like water in the river....lol...and i don't know...the happy thoughts came in my mind.There was many jokes,interesting topic and i laughed many times because riddiculous and foolish things happended,lmao.It was made my day.It was the best day in this week.And i couldn't stop smile and laugh till i back home.

Pas nyampe rumah, cerita deh ama teman sekamar saiah bahwa entah kenapa hari itu sangat menyenangkan dan pikiran saiah seneng aja bawaannya,hakhakhak....
Semakin dipikir semakin menyenangkan tapi semakin gak tau juga apa yang dipikir.

What a weird day.But i can say, its good for my health,right?Feel so happy so i can think positive and full of spirit.

Thursday, July 8, 2010

Everybody's Fine


I watched this movie last month.My sister recommended this movie.
Starring Robert de Niro,Drew Barrymore.Kate Beckinsale and Sam Rockwell.Its about a widower,named Frank Goode,embarks on an impromptu road trip to reconnect with each of his grown children only to discover that their lives are far from picture perfect.
Frank Goode (de Niro) is getting ready for his children to come visit him. He gets everything all set, goes out and buys a new grill, expensive wine, and gets the backyard and house all ready. One by one though, each of his children call to cancel on him. Feeling a bit down by the rejections, Frank decides to head out on a small trip, visiting each of his kids.

Its touching when in the end Frank found that he put high expectation to his kids.My fave scene is when Frank dreaming about he and the kids sit on the bench at backyard,eating then he ask what happen to each of them. Why they just follow his order without share to him if they found a trouble in his order.It was happened since they was a child.They talked anything to their mom instead him.Well,the kids said,because they dont want to dissapointed.
Parents always want the best for their kids,so do we,the child.We dont want parents know the bad thing which happen to us.My point is,just be honest to our parents.Dont let they sick because of us.We only live once,make them proud. Mom,dad we always love you and never gonna let you guys down.Just trust us.




Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Confuse

They says, dont admire people too much,cause they might dissapoint you.Well,its true.
Orang yang selama ini baik bgt, hampir tanpa cacat tiba2 punya sesuatu yg ketika Anda ketahui membuat Anda tiba-tiba merasa sangat marah. Hal ini membuat ngeliat muka tuh org pun males bgt,psycho.Hilang sudah semua kebaikan dan ketulusan yg ada selama ini.Gara2 nila setitik rusak susu sebelanga.Waktu itu gak ada orang yg bisa jadi pelampiasan kemarahan saiah,akhirnya ngedumel2 sendiri.That thing really ruined my days.Why...?Why this thing happened to people i care?

But,in my case...i was wrong (maybe).Awalnya emang tuh masalah bikin kesel bgt,hampir ajah tuh orang masuk dalam blacklist'a AMIE AKBARI as most hate people in the world because his/her secretly habit.Tp sempet kepikiran juga klo itu mungkin bukan sepenuhnya salah tuh orang.Mungkin itu gak sengaja dan even dia pun gak tau.Trus saiah kumpulin deh semua barang bukti, trus nanya ke orang2 yg lebih dulu mengenal dia.

After i asked many people,and found many evidence,i got the conclusion, he's not guilty.Well,i feel relief.
Please,don't ever change, cause you dont like other people.And its not appropriate thing for you.
If i care to someone, i'll do anything to protect him/her.