Dream

Hampa....
aku kembali berada di ruang kosong
titik nadir itu...di pelupuk mata
sekelebat bayangan itu kembali merasuki mimpiku

aku hidup dalam mimpi
hidupku adalah refleksi mimpiku
mimpiku terlalu indah
jangan pernah bangunkan aku

kau dan mimpiku
kau selalu berlari
aku letih
kau selalu tertawa
aku menangis
kau selalu dengannya
aku diam
tapi....jangan pernah pergi dari mimpiku

"My Mama always said, 'Life was like a box of chocolates; you never know what you're gonna get.'"

(Tom Hanks, Forrest Gump (1994)

The King's Speech

Director : Tom Hooper
Writer : David Seidler (screenplay)
Stars : Colin Firth, Geoffrey Rush, Helena Bonham Carter

Storyline :

Tells the story of the man who became King George VI, the father of Queen Elizabeth II. After his brother abdicates, George ('Bertie') reluctantly assumes the throne. Plagued by a dreaded stammer and considered unfit to be king, Bertie engages the help of an unorthodox speech therapist named Lionel Logue. Through a set of unexpected techniques, and as a result of an unlikely friendship, Bertie is able to find his voice and boldly lead the country through war. Written by Anonymous

Firth's nuanced brilliance is a thing of bruised beauty. Oscar-nominated last year for A Single Man, he gives a towering performance that deserves a shower of awards. And Rush is his match, fiercely funny in the hilarious and heartfelt interactions between king and commoner. Lionel is a failed actor given to grand gestures, and Rush chows down on this feast of a role, jolting the movie to life. Firth plays the counterpoint, the blue blood bred to hold it all together. It's uproarious to watch Lionel prod Bertie to lose his cool, forcing him to sing out a symphony of shit-fuck-bugger-me swearring (all stammer-free). (TH ROLLING STONE MAGZ)

In my opinion, this movie is one of the great. You'll get the history. A job nicely acted all around, with numerous touching moments and a historical backdrop that can't help but be dramatic. Firth is adorable. Loved him since The Bridget Jones's Diary. The clumsy and charming Mr.Darcy. Geoffrey Rush as good as always. Both leads play all this in a spirit of good fun. Firth creates a character so palpably cloaked in self-defeating worry that his only clearly identifiable other emotion is rage. Meanwhile, Rush - who has spent too much time lately showing up in projects far beneath him - has a great time clowning while also serving as the future king's confidant and possible only friend. And for Helena,well...not bad.

This movie is recommended. Two thumbs up :-bd

He heals me
Told him my biggest secret
And he told me four.
He smiled at me and said that makes me love more
And then he made me laugh
And I knew it was a sign That he was a man,
That I wanted in my life

And with every passing day
I feel more and more of that way

He heals me
He knows the real me
And he accepts me, he never hurts me
He heals me
He knows the real me
And he accepts me, he never hurts me
He heals me,
He heals me

I can play him songs, all through the night,
And he will listen to every line,
And even when I'm wrong, he is still kind
He chooses his words wisely when he tells me I'm not right.

And yes he is a beautiful man,
But he is also a beautiful friend

He heals me
He knows the real me
And he accepts me, he never hurts me
He heals me
He knows the real me
And he accepts me, he never hurts me
He heals me

The moment that we met, he made me smile.
He has so much compassion in his eyes
I have no idea, how long he'll be here
A season or a lifetime, forever or a year
But for the first time in my life I'm not worried about the future
Because we have such a wonderful time when we're together
However things turn out, it's all right
Cause he's already changed my life.

He heals me
He knows the real me
And he accepts me, he never hurts me
He heals me
He knows the real me
And he accepts me, he never hurts me
He heals me..........

HE HEALS ME by INDIA ARIE

PS : Love this song so much.One of my future wedding soundtrack v^*^V

I'm okay (No,i'm not)

Thats so true, when you say..."I'm okay.I will be just fine." but the truth is, you are not okay and you are not fine, everything is such a mess. In my opinion, that is a sign. Sign that show you need someone to share, to cry on, who gonna give a simple hug which gonna make you feel comfort, and many more.

It was happened to me many time. Well, maybe i overreacted, but it's true.

My sister said that i just like an open book, so you dont have to take many effort to
know me or understand me. But, i feel the opposite. I feel like i'm such an introvert person. No one understand me (well,i guess it's my selfish part). No one could.

Kind of my favourite word when people asking me, "are you okay?"...and i will give them an answer, "yeah,i'm okay. Don't worry, i'm gonna be just fine".

Well, i'm not okay actually, but i'm not gonna tell you what happen to me. I will solve it by my own.

Sometime is so damn hurt, when the one whom you expect to care about what happen to you, didn't realize it. You just hope that they gonna undertsand with your silentness, but they don't.

It's written in my face when I have a problem, they know that something happen, but they too scare to ask.Sometime that's good, because i need my own space and peaceful, but in other time,it's not. I want them to ask me. Show that they really care.

One of my weakness is, if my mood in ruin, my whole day gonna be a bad day, and the people around me gonna get the effect. See, i'm not okay. I try hard to change from now....because they don't make a mistake,right?It's my problem, so why should they get my "jerk face"?
I know that i've been ridiculous, and i feel sorry about it. I think that's the reason why they "scare" of me. It's so much better if i show them my happy face, i kinda friendly though,lol.

Well, i will change and gonna be Ms.Nice Guy, i can do it, right?

The more i try harder to forget about him, the more he close to me. Accckkkk....i hate this situation. I don't know what i feel about him. Not exactly,yet. I have this "needy" feeling about him, that's it. You are not mine and i'm not yours. But why it seems that we care about each other.
Honestly, i feel that you turn my life upside down, you make my day. I know maybe you don't feel exactly the same. Maybe i put a high hope. And i can't believe that i think a lot about this whole thing.

Cause there's a time when i feel i can't fight this feeling any longer.

Maybe it's a crush, a thing that always happened to me many times. But this one is more deeper, i guess so.

Busy

Pheeewwww.....
Akhirnya bisa istirahat jg dengan tenang.Tidur bisa tepat waktu lagi, gak punya beban, makan semangat lagi......

I do love my job.I'll do everything.I enjoy it.

Seneng rasanya bisa dapat kepercayaan dan diserahin tanggung jawab.Konsekuensinya emang harus kerja ekstra, semua pikiran dan waktu harus difokuskan kesana.

Hampir satu bulan, kesibukkan seperti gak ada habisnya. Sekarang, saatnya untuk istirahat sejenak, nge-charge energi lagi. refreshing itu hal yang mutlak, jd setelah itu kita bisa fokus kerja lagi.

Me Daddy....

(dapet nih foto dari dhini akbari)

Speaking of my dad...hmmm....its a neverending story.
So many things to tell about him.
The story that must be told.

He gone too fast.When i need him so badly.
He's the best dad in the world.Nobody does it better.

Papa tuh selalu bisa nebak jalan pikiran anak2nya.Dia selalu bakal support apapun yg dilakuin anak2nya,dengan syarat kita serius menjalani itu.Papa tuh gak pernah maksain kehendaknya.

Banyak hal tentang papa yang gak bakalan pernah Amie lupain.
Gak peduli sesibuk apapun papa,dia bakal punya waktu untuk setiap acara di sekolah.Papa selalu ngejemput raport kita,duduk di kursi paling depan dengan wajah penuh rasa bangga.
Setiap ada pertandingan,papa selalu hadir, walaupun kadang2 kita gak sadar.
Beberapa kali pernah tuh,pas waktu ada pertandingan volleyball,waktu itu udh down banget...eh samar2 ngeliat papa di kejauhan...i've got my spirit back.

Kita punya hobby yang sama.
Mancing ke laut,trekking ke hutan atau ke daerah2 pedalaman,ke kebon,dll.Saat panen raya adalah saat yg menyenangkan,hakhakhak....
Pergi sama papa tuh selalu menyenangkan.
Bahkan ampe penyakit pun sama...diare,hehehehe....

Papa punya peraturan yg ketat di rumah.Anak2 harus udh ada di rumah maksimal jam 5.30 sore.Trs maghrib ama shubuh harus jama'ah.Setiap jum'at harus ngaji bareng2.Makan malam dan sarapan harus sama2 di meja makan.Setiap anak punya tugas masing2 dan harus tanggung jawab ama itu.Sunday is family day,jd papa gak bakal ngijinin ada ekskul atau kegiatan sekolah lain di hari itu.

Beberapa hal tentang papa:

- papa tuh gak malu nunjukkin kemesraan'a sama mama di depan umum (pas waktu kita masih kecil sih kita ngerasa malu,hahaha....tp skrg kita sadar bahwa papa tuh romantis bgt ternyata ama mama,hakhakhak).
- papa selalu pulang ke rumah buat makan siang,katanya lebih baik dia makan buatan istrinya daripada makan di luar.
- papa itu orang yg paling disiplin.Klo mau bareng ama papa ke sekolah tiap pagi ya harus stand byu jam 6.45 pagi.Papa bakal ninggalin klo lewat dr jam segitu dikit aja.
- papa tuh emang type pemarah,tp marahnya y udh tentang itu aj dan sebentar...setelah marah y udh baiknya lg cepet.
- papa tuh ngajarin kita untuk memperjuangkan sesuatu,jd klo kita pengen sesuatu kita gak bakalan dapetin dengan cara gampang dan gak bakal dikasih begitu aja.
- papa hobby bgt nonton film, well ini nurun ke semua anaknya...kt semua addict bgt ama film.
- papa tuh suka bgt makan dan klo ngajakkin kita, papa bakal cerita ttg filosofi makanan itu.
- papa tuh rapi bgt,wangi....suka deh deket2 papa,hakhakhak....bau aftershave'a,bau deodorant papa.
- papaku itu orang yg paling gagah,hehehe...punya chin dimple (dagu belah)...kumis rapi...rambut klimis belah pinggir.Apalagi klo udh jalan,pake panthofel coklat kesayangan...pake kacamata item,tas selempang kecil...
- papa tuh jago masak...klo papa udh ke dapur...tinggal bilang mau apa deh...
- papa tuh selalu ngerjain semuanya sendiri.Klo mau keluar kota,selalu nyiapin bajunya sendiri,dan susunan di koper itu selalu rapi dan sistematikal.
- papa gak pernah bawa kerjaan rumah ke kantor, karena klo udh di rumah ya dia bakal spend his time full for his family.
- papa tuh jago nyanyi, jago bikin dan baca puisi, jago nari (sejak jaman dulu ternyata dia jg udh terkenal di seantero padang).

Hadehhh....masih banyak lagi tentang papa yg gak bisa dilupain.

He passed away in June 25,2002.That was the worst day ever.Nobody know this,but i cant cry for 6 month or more after that day.I cant let my tears out.

Why he must gone so fast?Why....why...why... There's so many thing to share dad. There's so many problem to solve. There's so many story to tell. I need you.I need your shoulder to cry on.I need a hug from you when i get a big problem. I need you to smile at me and tell me that everything is gonna be alright. I need you mad at me when i do the wrong thing and give me a warn.

I'm not grown up yet dad.And its because of you...
I'm still your lil girl.
The one who always cried when you mad at me.
The one who always laugh when you made a jokes.
The one who always blushed when you and mom teased me.

I love the way my dad walk.
I love the way my dad laugh.
I love the way my dad treat my mom.
I love the way my dad tell a story before we went to bed.

He loves us.
He always made us proud.
He had his own way to solve any problem.
He had many stories to tell.
He was a funny dad.

Dad....
I hope you smile at us now.
I hope we can make you proud.
We proud when they know us because of you.
You make us strong,tough,full of confidence and not fear of anything as long as we are in the right direction.
We gonna face any problem dad.You dont have to worry.
We gonna protect mom from anything.
We gonna protect each other.

They remember you because you are the best and the nice guy in the world.